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Just a thought about Pain

August 28, 2010
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Pain is something that comes in many forms but the damage that it causes is often subtle. It might be something simple like making a person uncomfortable moving a certain way after an injury has healed or it might be complicated such as the way a person treats other people because of past trauma or even neglect. It is such a broad topic but the awareness that I would like to focus on is the common ground that each and every spectrum of pain shares. Pain binds us and restricts us and we think it is our own choice to act as we do but all we are trying to do is avoid it, thus giving the root of pain itself control of everyone who experiences it and chooses to try to avoid it.

Just like cattle shying away from cattle prods, we shy away from things because we don’t want to feel pain.I know I am not the only person that does this, I see it every day when I watch people around me interacting. It never really occurred to me that I did this. I believed that I worked through pain because I am not that weak! I did not realize that the pain was making me a puppet.

At first it was things like saying “No I just don’t want to go to their house.” , ” I don’t want to go to church…you all can. That getting up and sitting down 15 times a sermon drives me nuts!”, ” I don’t feel like eating out. Can’t we just stay here tonight?”. Then I started noticing my behavior changing. I started getting grouchy all the time and saying off the wall things that I didn’t really mean. And I got worse, I started alienating my self from loved one because they wanted to do things and I felt like an outsider.

All of  these things were happening right under my nose. In my mind, I seen things like they used to be not as they were. I became out of shape, a shadow of who I used to be. It was not until my wife pointed out that my ankles were bluing that I woke up and seen reality. I started trying to move about to get circulation going but my back started cramping up. I went to see a chiropractor and he took x-rays of  my spine and discover that I had fractured my pelvis in two places and did not even realize it!

I started treatment and some of the pain has gone away and I realized just how much I had been missing because of that subtle dull ache. My eyes are open now and as I look around I can not believe how many people are prohibited from living because they are not even conscious to the fact that they are experiencing pain. Mental pain could even be the worst of all at binding people because of the direction people go to avoid being hurt after they have been traumatized and the fact that they look healthy makes it even less obvious to every one including the one in the mirror.

I feel that I am fortunate and I am thankful that my life is not going to be ruined by my pain. I only hope that my awaking might be viewed by someone else who might have some pain too and look around and see for the first time what I have seen, the effect it has on life, and do something about it. May those that are in pain have the strength to live as they choose. Thank you for reading and I hope that I have helped you as well.

2 Comments leave one →
  1. August 28, 2010 11:52 pm

    I so would’ve felt the pain! LOL I’m a wimp though. Glad you figured out what was causing you discomfort.

    • August 29, 2010 2:10 am

      It sometimes takes more than pain to get through denial and…a thick head. Thank you for your comment!

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